Matthew James Bruce was born on September 29/1982 in Cold Lake, Alberta, Canada. Matthew went to live with God on December 1/2003 while living in Victoria, Bristish Columbia, Canada. Matthew will be forever loved and never forgotten. I am honored to be his Mom. Matthew is an only child.
I met my dear friend Cat Harter in August 2006. I put a couple of our pictures on Matthew's photo album.
Then He Touched Their Eyes And Said, According To Your Faith Will It Be Done To You. Matthew 9:29

We think of you in silence
And often speak your name,
But all that's left to answer
Is your picture in a frame?
If we could have one lifetime wish, 
One dream that would come true,
We would pray to God with
All our hearts
For yesterday and you!
If tears could build a stairway
And heartaches make a lane,
We would walk our way to
Heaven
To Be With You Again!

Hey look at me Mom, I'm an Angel now
Standing at Heaven's door
Can't you see me?
Watch me as I soar!
I'm at total peace now
Don't cry for me very long
I'm here in the Lord's embrace
Right where I belong
 I must be very special
God called for me so soon
Look and listen closely
You may hear my Angel's tune
Nothing can hurt me now Mom
I just wish that you could see
My wings are fastened tightly
And I'm all that I can be!
I can now watch over you
To guide you along your way
My love will still surround you
Each and everyday.
 I have to go for now
There's so much to be done
God's work is never ending
And I've only just begun.



Who is the elephant in the room?

I am the elephant; you pretend not to see,
It’s not something I asked for, but I’m forced to be.

I try to fit in, I wear my disguise,
But people won’t look at me, they hide their eyes

It’s better not to talk, for saying wrong words is what you fear
You speak quietly now, for the elephant might hear.

This elephant in the room, understands your plight
It’s uncomfortable and awkward you want me out of sight.

It not my fault, I wish you could see,
It’s not how I planned for my life to be.

The elephant in the room I did not ask to be
Look at me, look at me, can’t you see

The elephant in the room I do not want to be
Please don’t ignore me, please can’t you see.

You know the elephant is full of heartache and pain
That since my son died, my life’s not the same

But that’s not a good reason to shut me out,
That’s not what being a family or friend is about.

I don’t expect right words for you to say
Just remember my son, this is what I pray.

Just remember he once was a part of this earth
That he was my joy from the day of his birth

I know no one likes to see elephants cry
And the tears in my eyes, to hide I do try

Please understand, the elephant I wish not to be
It’s not something I asked for, but I’m forced to be.

So if to make you comfortable, I guess I’ll continue to be
The elephant in the room, you pretend not to see.

Written by:
Cathy Harter
10/7/07


















      

         







                                 
  Mom,you have always been there when I need you
 and I pray you always knew,
How much you are loved by me,I pray that this love shows.
In the affection I gave, a hug and a kiss,
Sometimes I might have took you for granted and not told you this.
I love you,mom I've gone way,but my spirit is always close
Of all moms in the world,you exceed them all.
We laughed together,cried together and I envy your strength and power,
You refuse to be defeated, pushing forward every hour.
I love and needed you so much, my precious mother,
You  blessed my life like no other.
I praise God for giving you to me,
The love grows stronger daily, even here in heaven
Peace I wish for you, for God to touch your grief,
Look up to Him and pray for sweet release.
I know the roads you've traveled and the hurts in life you've had,
I hate to see you cry,hate to see you sad.
I pray that God gives you happiness in your coming years,
That He gives you blessed days instead of ones filled with tears.
I know that you miss me and please know we
 will be together again,
I praise the Lord for you, my mentor,my mother, my friend.



Mom, please don’t feel guilty
It was just my time to go.
I see you are still feeling sad,
And the tears just seem to flow.
We all come to earth for our lifetime,
And for some it’s not many years
I don’t want you to keep crying
You are shedding so many tears.
I haven’t really left you
Even though it may seem so.
I have just gone to my heavenly home,
                          And I’m closer to you than you                            
 Just believe that when you say my name
I’m standing next to you,
I know you long to see me,
But there’s nothing I can do.
But I’ll still send you messages
And hope you understand,
That when your time comes to “cross over,”
I’ll be there to take your hand.



                                                
I miss your smile, your gentle face,and all the things you did with grace. I miss the love from your kind heart, and all the joys you did impart.
Each day I fold my hands in prayer and know that you are happy there, Where all is peaceful and serene, where you reign with our heavenly King.


You were my son
you were loved like no other.
Your life was filled with your love for your family
You will be missed by family and friends,
with a love that knows no end.
I know that you are surrounded by angels
that watched over you,
and protected you in all that you would do.
You were loved by all and I pray that you knew,
Our love will never die, daily renewed.
I thank God for watching over you all of these years.
But I know He needed you with Him, despite all our tears.
He has something for you to do to help Him in some way.
And I know we will meet again on that special day,
Remember that we love you and you're always in our hearts,
memories of you will be imbedded, never to depart.
So we will not say good-bye.
just that we will see you some sweet day.
Where we will be together, forevermore to stay.
love always your Dad

Don't weep for me for cause I'm not alone,
I'm here with Jesus beside His throne.
I am not cold nor asleep.
Theres so many new people here in heaven to meet.
I love you and miss you and know you grieve for me,
But I'm here,waiting for you,one day soon, reunited we will be.
We will soon be together forever, Jesus is making the plans.
He is coming to bring you home, to this beautiful land.
No tears,no sorrow,no pain is allowed in this heavenly home.
The blind can see, the deaf can hear, the crippled have new legs to roam.
No sadness exists in this city so fair,
No tears ever form in this land over here.
So, don't ever say good-bye
Just see you soon, here beyond the sky.
You see, I'm happier than I've ever been, since entering heaven's gates,
I miss you so much but for you, I will patiently wait.
We will never be separated again, together for eternity,
So be happy when you think of me, Please don't for me grieve.



As I open my eyes each morning and close them each night,
The image of you,my son,I see bathed in shining light.
People ask,how long will you mourn,will this pain ever heal?
And as those words are said,the tears continually spill.
My heart aches so much for you,to hold you in my arms,
I tried so hard throughout your life to protect you from all harm.
They buried a part of me,when they covered you that day,
A part of my heart that will never come back,never more to stay.
I weep,Oh God,why did you allow my son to be taken away,
I needed him much more than you,why didn't you let him stay?
I loved him,nurtured him,and treated him with care,
Always letting him know that I would always be there.
he was so special to me,a very special link.
I miss our bond,our talks,our joys and our sorrows,
My mind still can't comprehend,that he won't be here tomorrow.
My mind can't interpretate the grief that fills my mind,
He was my firstborn son,one of a kind.
Each waking moment,my mind is consumed,with thoughts of loving him,
So when people ask,how long will I mourn,the answer is very clear,
Until we reunite in heaven,me and my son,so dear.
Until we are together again,I will not be whole or complete,
Until we are together again,satan me you will not defeat.
I love this son with all of my heart and that feeling will never leave,
Until that day,I guess I'll wear,my heart upon my sleeve.
God,please give me the power to live these days without him in my life,
Provide me the power to handle the stress and strife.
Wait for me son,in heaven,and when I enter those pearly gates,
Grab me in your arms,never more to stray.
We will live forever,never more to part,
Until that day,my precious son,you will remain in my heart.
loving you always your Mum

 If tears could build a staircase,and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again. I know that it is selfish to want you back in this cold horrible place, But oh,what I would give,just to see your face. I'm going to keep on keeping on for Jesus .so that I'll see you some sweet day, In our mansions up above,eternity together again,evermore to stay. I love you Matthew



I thought when I lost my son,I wanted to die,my life,I thought,was done. No one can understand what a parent feels when they lose one of their own, You think its all a dream,wake me up,here I don't belong. You feel guilty if you eat,smile,laugh or even sleep, You wonder how could I do that,all you want to do is weep. You feel guilty because your life is going on without them in it and you can't begin to comprehend? That your life must go on but their's is finished,the end. But they are waiting for us to join them in that home across the sea, Working on our mansion,where we'll spend eternity. Now a parent shouldn't have to lose their child,the grief consumes our heart and soul, But Jesus will help you thru this,I've been there and I know. So even in times of anger and grief,so bad you want to scream, Go ahead,for He knows your heart and exactly what you mean. He shed the very first tear when we lost our child, But rest assured,they are with Him and we will join them in awhile. I love you son
 


       
         
Losing a child in death is one of the most traumatic and painful ordeal a parent can face.In life, no matter how how you try you never return to normal. I can tell you from experience that there is no way you can ever be prepared for such a loss.If a woman loses a husband,she is a widow,a man loses his wife,a widower,children losing their parents are orphans, but I cannot find one word in the English or any other language for a parent losing a child. Acute grief includes painful yearning for your deceased loved one.You have excuriating lonliness for the person who had died and for the uniques relationship that has been lost. You have strong feelings of separation.deprivation,aching, and sadness. You are preoccupied with the deceased,you dream of him,think of him, or search for him. Some people have acute visual or auditory senses of their loved one.The pain is so bad that you fel that nothing can help except the return of your loved one. Activities once pleasurable are no longer enjoyable. You may conclude that life is meaningless, and even that you are worthless.You may become forgetful that you will be overwhelmed by your mental anguish.



Mom,Dad If you could see me now you wouldn't grieve, I know you miss me so very much, but I'm in a wonderful place of peace. I walk daily on streets of gold listening to the angels sing, Their praises never stop, to Jesus Christ,our King. I am waiting patiently for all to meet me over here, There's so much I want to show you in this land so fair. Nothing you have ever seen on earth with this could ever compare. Golden gates with diamonds and pearls of every kind. Nothing like these on earth you will ever find. Oh mom, I can't wait to see your awe when you meet Jesus face to face, When you see Him in all His glory, His Amazing Grace. What a wonderful time we will have when we meet again, All the pain and grief erased, our love will never end. All the memories of these grief filled years without me willl be taken from your mind and heart, Together forever, never more to part.